I over slept my alarm by 45mins so I had to rush getting ready. Ai did not tell me anything about where we are going, what to bring etc. So I just randomly packed a change of clothes, and a bathing suit even though I didn`t know if I am going to need it or not.
I rushed to Shinjuku and made it only 15mins late. Didn't really matter though because by the time we left was past 1 when the original time was 11am. When I arrived at Nodens I kinda sat around talking with everyone. It was a bit awkward since none of the people I'm close to are around like Sora, Minoru and Yuuki. Then there was Hana who is a bit scary and then... in pops in Miho. I almost got a bit hopeful when I didn't see her name in the staff section. But then I found her name on the customer section and was like hahaha who was I kidding?
She came in looking like a hot mess in jeans and a black tank with her hair all messed up. Ai told her it looked dasai so she tried to change into something else. I think it was some sort of lolita looking thing. (like the punk lolita cosplay -ish looking stuff) Everyone was asked why did she change and she whined back that Ai said what she was wearing looked dasai. But of course that kind of clothing is not quite right either so she went out to go buy something. She came back with a mars knock off black one piece with some white accents that looked kinda like night wear and asked for his opinion. He said ahh its good kinda hastily before going to get some sake.I talked to some of the other people for a little while and got to know some of them. While Miho tried to put her hair in a dango but failed and just left her hair semi straight.
Ai of course took forever to get the sake. Everyone was getting annoyed but saw it coming. Miho was telling Yamapi to call him. He called once and he didnt pick up. She told him hes a wanderer so you have to be persistent in calling or he will never pick up. We were all agreeing that he just never is on time for anything and never picks up the phone. He finally arrived at around 1ish and we all set off for kanagawa.
A friend of Masan's, DJ Zan also joind our car because Masan's car couldn't fit everyone else comfortably since Hana, Maria and Tsubasa are kinda on the larger side + alot of the food and stuff was in their car too. I talked to him most of the way.
Miho complained that she was getting a bit car sick so we stopped at a rest stop for a little while. It was a bit open parking lot and stuff. It really looked like one of those rest stops between Vancouver and Seattle. This part of Japan really reminded me of the west. Very wide and open. Living in central Tokyo all this time I don't really get to see this part of Japan very often even though most of Japan just outside the main cities are just like this.
When we got back into the car, Miho asked if we needed bathing suits because there was some water guns in the trunk. Ai said he thinks so and Miho was like WHAT? Why didn't you tell me?!?! Kirby also felt the same. I wasn't told anything either but I knew we would be near water and knowing Ai he loves games and competition so I wouldn't be surprised if I got wet . Thus I packed a bathing suit just in case. Unfortunately I didn't know for sure if it was necessary or not so I didnt pack a bra since I was wearing my bikini top as a bra. Anyways, because of this we had to make another stop on our way there to pick up some swimwear. I couldn't find my bra size so I decided to leave it.
When we were getting close to the camp site (you see, he said resort but it was really a camp site) There was a big pretty bridge and it looks like that we are in the middle of a mountain range in a little valley where a river runs through. The way the trees look etc, looks like stanley park. We set up in these little hut looking things with tatami mats inside. To my shock there was no bedding or plugs or shower. He didn't tell me it was a camp site! ==;; Luckily it was too hot for bedding anyway because there's of course no AC. I'm glad I wore flipflops instead of just comfy heels... because I was seriously thinking it would be like Dancegroove's trip.
Concerned about changing, Miho asked the boys to leave while changing. Ai thought it would be best to separate girls and boys but Masan said No. (because his gf is with him lol) I also didn't want that because I'd be stuck with Miho without Ai or anyone else I can talk to other than Maria who is likely going to be spending most of her time with Masan. This is because Kirby doesn't really talk, Hana is a bit intimidating, and I don't like Miho. But it seems that the cabins will be split by car group. So Masan, Maria, Hana, and Tsubasa in one and Ai, Yamapi, Kirby, Zan, and Miho in the one I'm staying in.
We set up the BBQ after getting changed into our bathing suits. My shoe broke along the way so I had to go get flipflops with everyone else. They ran out of women`s so I had to wear men's. It felt awkward but whatever. The food was delicious and Maria was soo nice to me. I kept calling her cute and everything. I really like Maria she's one of the people who was always really nice to me. I find in Ai's bar people, there's half of them that I really get along with and half that I only somewhat mutually are ok with.
Just a bit later, a person brought out a Leek. (the giant onion shoot that you make miso soup out of and the one that a particular pokemon I forgot the name of always carries) Kirby kept dipping it in water and smacking Yamapi with it. Ai said she was doing it too softly. I tried too but Ai said that too is too soft. I then diped it again in water and smacked him with it. He gave me a look of surprise. Everyone took turns with it and a little after the Leek smacking game subsided, Ai leaned over to say something then hit me VERY hard on across the butt with it, ran off laughing and did a vicotory dance. All I could think of was how silly he looked and ow....I later got my revenge by slapping him REALLY hard across his butt with my hand. He gave a wince of pain, then smiled and said that`s more like it, your b-gata-ness is coming out.
The family next to us was really kind and gave us some gaint prawns to cook. Zan came over to feed it to me and Maria said whoa whoa whoa too erotic lol. Maria and I talked a little bit over some food and I found out shes a mediator for married couples. No wonder she is so nice. Masan took out the badminton rackets and everyone just either sat and talked or played around in the river. Ai and I had it out again in the river with Maria and Masan. I took an empty bottle and filled it with water and dumped it all over Ai`s back. I almost emptied it all but he tore it away from me and tried to get me back. I ran too fast so he barely got the rest on me. But I stepped on a rock wrong and it really hurt. His game face switched off and asked if I was ok in a really sweet concerned tone and told me to be careful.
Everyone has been consitantly drinking through-out the bbq but when it started to get a bit darker Ai brought out the nihon-shu and kept picking on Hana who was not even remotely in the mood to drink. The drinks got passed around and everyone was drinking alot. I'm normally really bad with bubbles but maybe this time I was ok because I was already on my 3rd smirnoff and still not drunk.
I can never tell when Ai is drunk or not because it doesn't show on his face but he must have been because his guard seemed to be slowly wearing down as the evening progressed. I don't know where Miho went, but I think she went back to the cabin to clean her eye from some stuff that got in it. Ai, Hana, Zan, Maria and a bunch of others and I were all drinking in a circle. Suddenly Ai taped me on the head. Automatically, I looked up and I was met with a kiss followed by a rush of sake into my mouth from his. He did this 2x. Everyone was shocked but cheering it on.
Zan started to die and so did I. The sake hit me kind of suddenly. Wierd, I normally have it hit me gradually but this time it didn't show up at all for awhile. I was trying my best to last til hanabi but I started to feel not soo good. Yamapi was already there because he was taking care of Kirby who was already out. I had only expected Ai just to take me back and return to the group but he stayed with me. He let me lay my head on his lap and kept me close as he talked to Yamapi. A knock on the door came shortly after with a bunch of people carrying Zan into the room. They left almost as quickly as the came so the room was just Yamapi with Kirby on his lap, Zan dead in the middle and Ai with me on his lap. Ai started to explain to Yamapi about being a man and trying to demonstrate things using me as a practice dummy. I was too drunk out of my mind to fully understand what was going on but Ai stuck his hand into my binki top and groped me 0_0. (ok he must be drunk because wtf) he did this a few times. (normally I'd slap someone before can get near but Ai used to be my bf so I didn't know what to do) He then moved his hand lower and thats where I grabbed it and pulled it away from me. Seriously I don't mind but not in front of people.
A little later Miho came to the door and Ai had to talk to her. (I'm not sure when but very drunk I accidently slipped out that Ai had kissed me so I think she was upset.) I couldn't make out the words at all and then I knocked out for a bit. I awoke a little later and stood outside the cabin for some fresh air. Just at that moment Ai was coming up the hill. He asked if I was ok and told me he wanted to talk to me. He had me wait for him outside the washroom and then took me to the car. We sat down. My head was spinning. I don't even remember exactly what he was saying because I didn't understand most of it. Ai was fondly moving his fingers across my hand as we talked. He explained to me that at work, he has an image he has been putting up which is that he is a workaholic and is unobtainable. People don't know about our past and he would prefer to keep our realtion in private because it could get hard for bussiness if it gets mixed up in it and we might not be able to see eachother from it. I said sorry and told him I don't really know what's wrong with me. In all my life I have never been jealous or insecure before I met him. The confusion he puts me through led me to talk almost as if I was trying to convince and prove to myself that what I'm thinking isn't in my head and he really does actually like me. Which also led to a question that has been in my mind since the last time we met. Does he like me for me or does he like me for what I can become? I was really dizzy and tierd and so not even in english could I put my words correctly. He didn't give me a clear answer but I think I wasn`t able to properly word my question at all. He said the emoitions and feelings are there or something like that. He was also concerned about how I was doing. I said my head is still spinning and I don't know why. I normally am not this weak to alchol but I have been getting progressively weaker and weaker. He told me we don't have much time here so he wants to discuss my future on the 15th. He also had mentioned something about me being sad or lonely is something he doesn`t want and that it hurts him too to see me like that. He said this with a sad face and a waver in his voice. This made me nervous. I hope that he doesn`t do something stupid for my sake like he did last summer. But we won`t know till the 15th.He started to get nervous of people walking pass the car so we went to the back. The rain started to patter on the windshield as we kissed and embraced eachother for a little while before his fear of being found out got too much and told me to head back first and he will follow a little later.
I returned back to the cabin and everyone was wondering where I went and where Ai was. I said I wasn't feeling well so I went outside to throw up (lies) and that I don't know where Ai is, I didn't see him. We all chilled for a little while and Ai returned a little later. I found that my wallet had pen ink spilled all over it so I was busy trying to get it off while eba-chan was being crazy and loud. Not long after the rain stopped and everyone went back outside to play with fireworks. We started a little bit of a camp fire with random stuff. As expected Ai threw a bunch of fireworks into the fire so that it would all go off at once and nothing happend haha. I was a bit smarter with it and lit what he threw it and then it worked. After the fireworks were finished, Ebachan, Zan, Tsubasa, Kirby and I were left just chilling out. They were playing some sort of strip game with rock paper sissors. I refused to participate. Eba-chan said why not its funnnnn! I said there`s nothing in it for me. He said but the boys strip too if they loose you know! Yea but it`s not like I really want to see you strip LOL. Ebachan teased and said what if it was Ai? I laughed but held me tongue on the reason because of what Ai said about telling other people about us. (What I was going to say was why would I need to see that in a game when I`ve seen it many times before while we were dating? Besides, I never really cared about naked men. I find a man with long skinny legs wearing tight jeans far more sexy than a naked one LOL) Ebachan mistakend the laughter as dirty thoughts and I went further to explain I prefer men fully clothed. Kirby kept loosing but I stopped the game before she actually had to strip. I told them that if she doesn`t want to, don`t force her. Eba-chan said omg scary why are your eyes suddenlly so cold... wait? what? is it.. that you have no makeup on?!?! I was like um.. yea... Its been like that for awhile and you just noticed now? LOOLLLL but yea my eyes have always been cold, they just look warmer with contact lenses. We talked for a while more but kinda of started to realise that other people of the group were not coming back so we all headed back up to the cabin. They were all inside eating cabbage lol wtf. How come they didn`t tell us.
We chiled in the cabin for a little while more and then we all headed back out again to try to break the watermelon but then decided it was too dark for this so we just chilled around and talked. Ai disppeared at one point and so did Miho. The rest of us soon headed back too. I found myself outside with Yamapi taking about some random stuff and then he went to the washroom. I decided to have a look at the car area and to my suspicion Ai and Miho were there. Of course I didnt go past the car to see because she came out the car around the time I got there. I ran to the washroom and watched her walk pass through the crack of the door. A little while later I came out of the washroom and met back up with Yamapi to go to the cabin. We all went to bed and Ai never came back so I suspected he is sleeping in the car since his bag is also gone too. I wonder what he and Miho were doing... a few things came across my mind. Since earlier in the evening Miho had expained that Ai is incapable of having dirty thoughts and is broken in that department it led me to believe that maybe she is also shown only that side of him, but you never know with people, she could be just lying to keep it up for him as well. I knew he had to calm her down after she found out about the kiss so maybe it was a talk about that. It could also be a talk about a mail she wanted to discuss with him that she was showing earlier this evening. The 2nd possible thing they could be doing is that he might have done some stuff with her just to shut her up or the 3rd which is the worst, is that he might be playing both of us at the same time... Ahh why am I so jealous??? I hope it was just a talk.
The next morning I awoke relatively early... I couldn`t sleep anymore so I took the shampoo and washed my bangs in the sink. With no hairdryer or iron I didnt really know what to do with my hair so I just carefully moved it from side to side and lied it out so it would remain flat and in the right shape. I was frustrated with how much of a wreck my hair was in but I thought I`d at least fix my face by putting on my makeup. A few hours later everyone woke up and went down to the river for the watermelon. To Miho`s disappointment they cut it instead and she was not intersted in eating it since she wasn`t feeling well. Yampi said that he liked my face without makeup more than with. I said aww thx but its too bad but, thats not my real face its just my sleeping face. Masan laughed and smirked affirming he that his is all too famliar with this way of thinking. After eating the watermelon we all packed up and set off to leave. Ai and I didn`t really talk for the whole morning. There was a bit of a nervous tension between us for some reason so I called up Ash and talked about the events that happend over the weekend.
He said ahh I don`t like summer as he gazed out at the sun. He then turns to me and says you don`t like summer too right? If I recall you like winter the most like me. I said yea, winter is my favorite season because it`s the most romantic. Oh?? Yea,There`s christmas, newyears, valentines day, white day and of course, Ai`s birthday is also in the winter. He said ooohh yea with a warm smile on his face. If I was born 3 days earlier I`d be winter too but I just made it into spring. He said yea, that is correct. We looked out the window again smiling.
With the tension lifted, the rest of the way home felt like things were back to normal. When he returned the car to the rental place we started to head back to shinjuku. At first it was Ai and I beside eachother then for a little while Miho cut in somehow. However, soon enough it was just us agian. I looked behind me and Miho had her head down a bit in kind of frustration. I continued casual conversation as usual. When we hit a red light and Miho caught up, she said that Ai has no regard for girls walking pace. Our bags are heavier and our shoes are harder to walk in. (though my bag was definately heavier than hers and I was going to say somethin until I realized that im wearing flipflops at the moment. However, even with heels I can still keep up with Ai`s pace so I still dont think its an excuse) Ai said ooh- sorry? Miho got slightly offended and called him out on his lack of care but was tierd and gave up. This is where Ai decides it would be better to use a taxi. He sent us all off in the taxi while he walked his way back. I got off around Donki and said goodbye to everyone so I could head home because I was exhuasted and embarassed of my hair and shoes. (Besides, knowing Ai, by the time he reaches the Bar would be evening haha. He never does anything within a timely basis.)