Tuesday, August 9, 2011

July 2011~Aug2011: Sprialing Down to Hell



July 7th Love Gal's

The summer heat is killing me and it doesn't help that my a/c broke and my landlord won't fix it for us. I hate summer as is. This happening is just killing me. I eventually arrived at itatoma to find out they weren't there so I had my pizza wrapped up. I was really started to get annoyed with sa-jin at this point. Always fucking changing their plans on me and Ash not being assertive enough and playing weak girl and not saying what needs to be said. I'd say if I could but unfortunately its not me who can speak well enough at this point. Ash being annoying on the phone refusing the fucking tell me the place in english using Japanese pronunciation on a fucking english word. Its PRONTO I didn't understand wtf is Puronto because it sounded like Front? Plant? or some sort of random gibberish. Her directions also really sucked. I really hate when she does this. She gets all shy and docile and refuse to speak in english on the phone when there are japanese people around when what needs to be said could be said so much easier in english. It annoys the hell out of me because its like shes ashamed of being foreign or something. Anyways I got there after much difficulty almost yelling at Ash on the phone. When I got there she said sorry and said it's because she didn't want to be bothered by the 2 white girls on the table next to us. I was like = =;; really now? Who cares. You speak english so speak it. Nothing to be ashamed of or hide from. If they bother you then tell them to piss off. If they stare at you then it's their problem. Anyways the rest of the meet became kind of like a share your problems week and it became kind of a nice bonding of our members. Of course the one thing that was bothering me most is Ai. After we got home I went on the computer and looked up a bunch of words that might aid me in talking with Ai for our date the next day. I really needed to talk to him about a few things.

July 8th Ikebukuro Date with Ai


I really wanted to wait until fall to wear lolita for Ai because summer is just dreadful but with the way things are going right now, I had this odd feeling that today maybe the last. I really need to talk to him to see what is going on...


I arrived at Ikebukuro station perfectly on time but he was not there. I waited in the heat in lolita fanning myself with a little floral print fan while trying to find out where he is. I finally get contact from him that he will be there soon. He fell asleep on the train and miss the stop so that's why he is late. I waited some more. An old lady passed by me and complimented on my appearance. You look like such a doll! and look at that little narrow tall nose you have, you look soo pretty! She really brightened up my day. Ai finally arrived 45mins late. Alot faster than usual but I just wanted to die because of the heat. When he found me he was pleasantly surprised by the dress. I think he likes lolita alot.

He lead me to a Cafe called Milky Way located at the mouth of sunshine city. The place had a really cute atmosphere and we ordered some cute deserts. They had some designed after the 12 star signs. I was going to pick my own but in the end picked Sagittarius (Ai and Ash's sign) because it looked the most tasty. When our orders came we started to talk. He started off by saying sorry to me and that whole day was just full of screw ups from him.  The reason why he was kind of cold to me was because he was in front of a potential business partner so he didn't think it was appropriate to be all lovey-dovey with his girlfriend in front of him. (though there was another couple there and Ma-san thought it was weird how he was my boyfriend and was so distant.) We talked for about 3hours because with lack of language, what would normally take me 30mins-1hr to say in english took me 3hrs. But, like always Ai patiently listened to me and made sure he understood what I was trying to say everytime. In short I told him, that this late thing has to stop, I don't mind waiting as much as I just don't like our time to be taken away since we only see eachother every so often. I also just in general want him to be a little more affectionate, like mail me sometimes or call. If not that, then see me more often. He agreed that he should and said he's really sorry for what he did at dancegroove. It was going smoother than what I thought. I thought I would have to fight him on it or he would just give up on me and leave.

Broken screen, missing keys, jammed disk drive, time on continuous loop so cant update, thing heats up so bad you could fry an egg on it, fan makes jerking noises,  won't turn on without being plugged into the wall, and trust me it gets worse from here
We finished our desserts and left the building. It was too late to do anything like the aquarium or something like that so we went to the game center took some purikura. I wrote we have been dating for this long and still going strong =)  and when I told him the meaning he smiled warmly and said thankyou. Then he tried his luck at the UFO catcher. He tried to get 2 bunnies at once but failed. After prob the 14th try he got one and gave me it. I was soo happy. We still had a little more time before he had to go so we went into to a electronics store. He said he was thinking about getting a willcom phone because money is starting to get tight for him. He's been saying for the last couple months that he has alot on his mind as for what kind of job he should do. He's going to quit hosting any time now so he has to think about what's next. He wants to become something big so he can protect the person who is special to him.

While we were looking I brought up the fact my computer is broken and I kinda need to buy a new one. I know that he's actually pretty good at computers so I wanted him to help me pick one out. He took me to the top floor where they sold used computers and talked to me about each of them. I said I wanted to go to Akiba with him the next time we meet so we can take a longer look. When we exited we also talked about what's going on with me. I said my visa is up soon.. and its making me nervous. He asked me what am I going to do about it? What am I going to do about it...? 0_o....

We talked further about the subject and he said he will look into stuff a bit more about it. He said he talked to some foreigners here and there and it all seemed difficult. (duh, I could have told him that =_=;l; ) But anyway he said he wants me to try harder.

We also talked about housing and stuff. His lease is up in Feb so we can't really do much about that for now but he said he would love to live together and stuff.... Everything seemed like it was going well. He even said that sometime soon like between the 13th or 17th he should have some time to see me.

July 17th.

On the 13th I waited all day for Ai to set up a time but in the end he couldn't meet and said he will try again on the 17th. The 17th came and he canceled so I ended up having coffee with Ruki and he kind of cheered me up a little before I met up with Ash in Harajuku.

July23rd Blaze Solo Event: Emotional Breakdown.


Since the 17th Ai hasn't contacted nor answered mails. I've been feeling pretty depressed, worried and confused. But I decided today I am going to get my mind off of things and have fun with my circle friends. Blaze is holding a solo event in Roppongi A-life and on our way there I was thinking about who's guest I should go under. I thought to put in Kai but to be loyal to toyosu family  I put in Linderman instead. When we got there we started drinking immediately. I was having a great time and drinking lots. My tolerance seemed to be high today. I finally ran into kai at about the peak of my high and he told me that he would give me 1000yen back if I went under his guest. I told him sorry but I didn't..... He gave me a kind of a hurt look and then turned around sharply and walked away pissed. This broke me.

I couldn't hold it anymore. I ran into the washroom and started to cry. I just couldn't take the stress anymore. My boyfriend hasn't contacted me in 2 weeks, even though he said he would try harder. (and he did try harder only to disappear for 2 weeks) My time is running out and I just hurt a close person of mine's feelings. The look of hurt in Kai's eyes just triggered all the emotions I have been bottling up inside for the past 2 weeks. I crouched down with my hands holding the sides of my face and cried. Girls started to gather around me and ask me what was wrong. I didn't care. I just wanted everyone to leave me alone. I  think I was in shock because just all the sounds and people's voices were a blur and I couldn't hear, think or feel anything but my heart breaking. Finally... a familiar voice rang through the murmur of noise. It was Ashley. She held on to me for awhile and to everyone else to give me some space. She comforted me and volunteered to find Kai for me. But Kai was nowhere to be found so she took me outside and I was still sobbing. All my friends were concerned because it's the first time the saw me cry. Ash kept me company and told them that everything will be ok. Soon after she took me home where I stayed and she went to the nijikai while I slept it off.

July 31st Elyce in Shinjuku


Ai finally replied after Ash had been hounding him for a week calling him everyday, a few times a day and leaving threatening messages in his inbox. He said some pretty confusing stuff about how he was sick and right now he's really busy with trying to get his life on track and that I should be doing the same too..? It was overall really long and left me very confused as to what this meant. He knows my visa is up soon, does he not care? I've already gone over how hard it is to get one on my own and he had promised if I couldn't find one he would help me.

I met up with Elyce and Ash in shinjuku were we bought a bottle of champange and drank outside chatting about things. Elyce was telling me about how she has been having thoughts of breaking up with her boyfriend since he won't see her more than a couple times a week. They work so close and yet he rather see his friends instead of meeting with her after. Ash and I both looked at her and thought 2x a week is more than we could ever ask for LOL. Elyce asked whats up with me and I told her the stuff that's been going on recently and she told me she could never handle what Ai puts me through. Through Elyce's responses, I started to realize that how a person treats you can be a deciding point for alot of girls. Whereas for me, I go for the personality as in not how they treat me par-say but who they are as a person and if said person loves me, then I'm satisfied. I guess that's where the problems lie. A person can be a great and wonderful person but still suck at taking care of a girl no matter how true, strong and sincere his feelings are. We just chatted on and on about random things til we finished the champange bottle. We then walked around a little and was dragged to a shaved ice van where we hung out with the people there. One of them we called safari boy because he was dressed in like a urban safari outfit. The head of the group bought us all some drinks and we just sat outside drinking with them. Around first train we said our goodbyes and left. It was a nice relaxing day I think.


Aug 9th A day out with Khea




Khea is an old friend of mine as those of you who may have read my entries back in 2009ish. She is happily married with a kid and loving husband here in Japan. My days have been pretty dark and gloomy but I decided that today I will have a nice day out during the day with my lovely friend Khea. This is the first time I'm seeing her since I arrived in Japan I think. Funny how time flies. This is also the first time meeting Khea's daughter Missha. Shes such a lovely well-behaved little girl. Lots of energy. As a friendly tradition we of course went to starbucks after taking purikura to catch up and talk about a few things. I asked her for some advice and Khea told me about some various options for visas in Japan and stuff. I took down some notes for things to look up when I get a spare moment. Khea told me that it seems I have grown alot since I came to Japan. We are only a month apart in age but she's so much more mature than me so it feels kinda of nice that it seems like I'm finally catching up after all those years in Canada where my growth was stunted. Unlike alot of other friends who couldn't understand why I like Ai, Khea did after I explained that what I liked about him most is his unique personality. However, with things so shaky at the moment I told her I've decided to try to find a back up plan. It's a little late but I still have a little over a month to figure things out. After our little chat, we went to Seibu department store and looked at various childern's items then I walked Khea to the station where she hugged me and said next time I should come over to her house for a nice home-made dinner. I said I would love to and waved good-bye. I really wish that someday I could have a family too.....

When I got home I took a short nap because I was exhausted from the heat. Not that my house was any cooler due to the a/c still broken... It was shortly after I woke up when a mail from Ai came in response to the one I sent him  asking for some clear answers.....

It was a long mail... but here were some of the key points

He likes/loves me and he sees me as his rival ( I asked him straight if he liked me or not and what am I to him)

His talk about his illness resurfacing and going to hospital wasn't a lie but I could believe whatever I wanted.(I asked if it was true or not because alot of my friends told me it sounded like a lie though I thought it wasn't because I saw the medication in his bag before)

He has little time left and needs to make something out of himself soon so he has no time for anything but that.

He thinks I am charming lady and maybe the best girlfriend a guy could ever wish for if things were under normal circumstances. But he thinks im holding back and he doesn't want that from me. He wants me to work harder and reach my fullest potential. (basically praising me and scolding me at the same time this goes on for about 3 paragraphs. )

He thinks I don't try hard enough. He tries soo hard even though he is sick and he thinks I should do the same too.

We should both work hard on our dreams. But sorry, we cannot do it together.

Something along those lines. It was very hard for me to read. Very long and very complex. Full of excuses, cold and chiding words, yet telling me he likes me and thinks highly of me. It left me confused other than the bottom line is that this is a break-up mail...


I am left alone with only a short time left before my visa is up without a solid backup plan yet, my a/c is broken and im dying in the heat of my first tokyo summer (37degrees and 100% humidity on most days), my computer is breaking more and more day by day and viscous girls from the otherside of the world are taking this opportune moment to put salt on my wounds by relentlessly making up rumors and threats everyweek. I felt like I could die...







Monday, June 27, 2011

After Dancegroove Party at Oretaku's


June ended in a little party by the beach at Ore-taku`s house. Still a little upset about Dancegroove I went to meet up with circle friends for a little get together. We were all told to meet in Shinjuku but I arrived a little later than everyone and yet still managed to make it on time. I ran into Yuuki and people on my way there and we sat at mac til everyone else gathered. Yuuki was in full mamba. Red GIANT hair. It was awesome!

I think the group in total was Yuuki, Hori, Tomoki, his girlfriend, one other girl, Ash, Masumi and I at this point. I thought we were all just going to drink somewhere but we headed to the station instead. I was then told that we were going to Ore-taku's house. Little did I know he lives WAAAAAAAAAAY out there. It took like an hour and a half on the train to get there. I was kind of miffed about the long train ride because it costed about 800yen to get to where we are now. I wasn't planning on spending that nor was I planning on going out that far. But we were already here so nothing I could do about it. Ore-taku arrived in his loud flashy car and his sempai arrived in a white van. We all split up into two cars and headed off to the beach. I was NOT planning on going to the beach! My diamante shoes were totally getting dirty from this whole thing. Aside from that it was kind of a nice change of scenery. It was so far out from Tokyo it kinda reminded me of coquitlam or somewhere really residential with lots of trees etc. It was very windy at the beach sand was getting all in my eyes and everything, my hair was needless to day ruined. We set off fireworks etc and had lots of fun. We all got back into the car, picked up some food from the konbini and finally arrived at oretaku's house. His house was really neat however the toliet was black 0_0 gross... did he never clean it since he moved in?

Everyone in the group was a sa-jin but ore-taku's sempai so when we started the drinking games he was getting hammered because he didnt know the games well. He called the ping-pong game the pin-pin game. LOL.  We played with some sort alcohol like wisky or some other not tasty drink... so Ash and I kept with the tequila balls because they were so much easier to eat than any of the other drinks. The night went on long and Yuuki's girlfriend and the other girl were already out. Yuuki was taking care of his gf which was pretty sweet because they were having a fight a little bit earlier. The sempai got really drunk and started to come on to ash but tomoki protected her. Masumi, Hori and I were the only ones not too drunk after it all and were just talking normal. We were definately not planning on sleeping over so as soon as morning hit we wanted to go home. Oretaku wasn't willing to drive so we had the sempai drive. He was still drunk. FUCKING scary but the town wasn't so busy and the distance is not to far.

Luckily my plans were canceled for the next day because it took me awhile to get back home.

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Dance Groove 2011 : Doomsday


This was the day we had all be waiting for! The day we had been diligently planning for! The day we had work soo hard for! For us not to be able to get a hair-set appointment.....

It is a very special day and we had wanted pro-hairset done but every place was booked other than one opening. So in short, we could not get us both done in time. Ash took the appointment while I struggled to get my hair to work on my own... I really didn't want to do my hair on my own but what can we do?

Like any day I want my hair to turn perfect, it fucks up numerous times and I had to spend extra time to get it to work. I was soo frustrated and upset because I was starting to run late on the big day.

I arrived at Roppogi very late but I guess that's why they make the meeting time a couple hours in advance so that late people will still all be on time. I missed out on taking photos in the park with everyone but at this point I didn't care because I was already in a bad mood due to having to last minute hair.

We all took purikura and it was really hot inside the booth. I was not very happy about it all.... I chugged down some coffee as I did not sleep more than 30mins the night before. On the brightside while waiting for everyone else to finish their purikura, I found a mew toy that someone left after winning it from a UFO catcher. I took him and attached him to my bag.

We all headed to club flower started to set everything up. Putting all our bags into to cloak check I realized I had forgotten my camera. GREAT another thing that went wrong... I feel like I was having the worst time of my life. But I get to see Ai today... We have been so busy lately that I hadn't seen him for 3weeks. I sure hope he comes on time... it being a big event and all there's sure to be line up..... but my phone has no service in this club....

The event started and I was wondering where Ai was... he must be late again.. I kept wandering the club to try to get signal. By the time I found signal he had called and mailed me many times saying he was going to be late (but this time he was only 45mins late) and that he is here now stuck in line. Great... I told him to be on time for a reason.... I told him SOO many times not to be late.... but I didnt have time to think about that for long as I was pulled into to doing bagging and pamphlet duty. Ai arrived shortly later but by then I was busy with staff duties and apologized to him and said I'll be with him shortly. I finished my shift around 1hr later everyone in my section was pissed that other members  of our section were not helping at all and it was all tomonyan ash and I doing everything. O-kun, when he was finally found, just sat there looking at the booklet instead of doing his work. It really made tomonyan furious.

I finally found Ai and thank-goodness he managed to entertain himself while I was gone. He introduced me to a guy he had just met saying that he is very admirable and that he and Ai are discussing maybe some plans about opening a bar together. Aww that's great~ I was afraid that maybe Ai might not enjoy himself since everyone is significantly younger than him but he managed to find a useful connection at my event. 

I was happy for Ai but at the same time I was feeling a bit uneasy as he was acting somewhat cold and affectionate. I introduced him to many of my friends but if I were to turn away from him for a just second to take a photo or to talk with a sempai he would be off somewhere just standing. I was a bit uneasy but I tried to get him to watch the show but because there was too big of a crowd he didn't want to go in that area and that the room was too hot. It wasn't properly a/ced for some reason. I thought it was a bit of a waste but whatever, I happy that he's here at least. But then he asked me don't have some other staff duties? I was a bit offended and said hey I know my schedule and I'm keeping good track of time. Don't worry!

I was a bit annoyed that he was being awkwardly distant to me today... and kinda voiced my opinion. He said oh? I'm not. Oh really...? I guess I'm just being too high strung. So I tried to kiss him ,just a light kiss but he pulled away..... I almost cried, when we were approached by Ash and other people. We talked in a group. Ash pulled him aside a bit to talk to him. I pretended to be absorbed in the other conversation. I told Ash that I don't think he's listening to me so I wanted her to tell him a couple things for me. Later I talked to ash and ash told me he kind of dodged her questions.

AHHHHGH... this day is just a disaster so far...but it can't get worse right???

I was soo distressed so I just wished this event was over even though I was happy with everyone who came for us this day and I am glad you all had so much fun. I wish I could have watched the show too.

I was really upset that Ai was almost ignoring me and paying more attention to  his possible new business partner than me even though its MY EVENT. But maybe its because of this environment.... Ai also said something that really offended me which was everyone seems soo young here and what benefit is there to to it. I said friends... don't  you understand?? I only came here 6months ago and these people have been the kind of friendship that I've been looking for. A tight circle of friends. A sense of belonging, for once I feel like I belong somewhere! Why can't he think of anything else but work.... There's more to life than just achieving your career goals.... I admire his ambition but sometimes.... other things are important too...

Perhaps... after this event we can have a nice relaxing dinner and clear everything up I mean its kind of hard to think with music blasting in your ears and I was tired so I am a bit more on edge than normal.

At the end of the event Ai told me he will wait for me outside as I finish up with whatever I needed to do for closing. I finished cleaning up in about 5mins and called him. To my disbelief.. he had already gone with that group of guys he had met at the event and said he was eating dinner with THEM and will meet me after and told me that I should eat dinner with my circle.  I couldn't believe it! He said he wanted to go home one last train which is around 12. Its now 7-8ish by the time they finish it will be around 9-10ish and getting him to meet me somewhere is like pulling teeth and even with that our time is cut again.... I was so angry. I said FINE then I will go eat with my circle.

I went to yakiniku with ash, masumi and yumi. I was trying my best not to cry but when they asked me what was wrong I bursted out in tears. Ash was kind of mad so she took my phone and called her with her phone. He didn't pick up so she left him a angry message telling him that I was crying and that he should be more considerate of my feelings etc. (there were a lot of other things said but I don't remember)

Masumi and Yumi tried to calm me down too and said that ash isn't the only friend I have and that they are my friends too. They, if I would allow, are willing to listen to my problems and be there for me. I was really touched by this. I didn't really have this kind of support in Canada.... I had good friends here and there but they were always separate from each other. No one was in the same group like the way we are in Love Gals.....

After we finished eating and I dried my tears, we headed to the station. They were all planning to go to the first after party and I was thinking of going but I decided not to.... I know my body. I had not slept and I  am in a bad mood. If I drink I'll surely get super drunk. I found that if I drink while im unhappy, I will drink and drink and drink and instead of going red i'll go pale and not get drunk for awhile then it will hit and ill be at the perfect high then I'll end up balling and crying and be so  drunk that weird things happen like I black out or my vision goes funny or I throw up all night. Not a good idea so I decided to go home.

I left my group with a big smile then when doors closed I headed home. At around 109 I cried a bit again.... I made it home around 9ish and laid in bed when Ai phoned me back. He said sorry and said that he could meet me if I went to shinjuku. I told him ok and that I'd be there by 10:30. I fixed my makeup and headed out the door.

I arrived at shinjuku kabukicho east gate at 1030 like I said. I phoned to tell him I had arrived. He told me he was still in roppongi. I was a bit annoyed because I told him what time I'd arrive. He told me he is going to go to shinjuku from roppongi right now. I thought to myself ok, that should only take 20-30mins max... not bad... so I said ill wait for him. I sat at the stairs and waited... and waited... 45mins passed by..... I call him again and he said he was coming and that maybe I should go to the after party for a bit. I told him I cant go because its expensive and I dont want to drink. hr... 1hr30.... I called again and asked him where the fuck was he. It doesnt take 1hr30misn to get from roppongi to shinjuku. He told me he was in Shibuya.... This is where I flipped out.

SHIBUYA?!?!?! I just fucking came from Shibuya! WHAT THE FUCK ARE THINKING?!?! Why did you tell me to come all the way to  shinjuku making me wait all this time here at this stupid exit. You should know shinjuku by now!! the east gate is where a lot of nampa and scouts are. Its annoying and embarrassing waiting here being approached by creeps all day! He then has the nerve to yell at me back. The first part was something like I thought you went to to the after party why didn't you go???? I told him that I had already told him I can't go!! I'll surely get sick and I don't have money to do that. Then he told me that he is still with those people which made me even more angry. I said YOU ARE STILL WITH THEM?!?!?! Then he said its business and that I should start trying to figure out things for myself. You've got to make your dreams work too so what have you done so far? It seems like you have all this free time to wait around and play. I said what? YOU THINK I LIKE WAITING AROUND??! IM DOING THE BEST I CAN AND IT DOESNT HELP THAT a lot OF MY TIME IS TAKING UP BY WAITING FOR YOU! Then we started yelling at each other on the phone and then of course I panicked because its loud and fast...I told him I don't understand and started to cry... He then hangs up on me....

I called ashley wondering where she is but she didnt pick up her phone so I started to cry on the stairs . A chubby gyaruo approaches and asks if I was ok. I shook my head and he gave me a kneenex and asked what was wrong. When I lifted my head, he said WHOA its cute, I wasn't expecting that, but really whats wrong? I started to explain what happened and he was patiently listening. When I told him it was a gal circle event he gave a shocked look and said he used to be in a gyaru cricle and wanted to see the pamphlet. When I showed it to him was when ash called me back. She told me had already gone home as I told her im now stranded at shinjuku and I dont know what to do. I was supposed to meet with Ai but now he says he can't come since there are no trains left and if there are no trains left then how am I even supposed to go home ??what I am I  to do??? Ash calmed me down then told me huh? What? He said that? There's still trains! Its only 12 trains don't stop til about 12:50. I calmed down and realized shes right. I called Ai back and told him there were still trains and asked what should I do; go to shibuya to him/or home or should I stay in shinjuku. He told me to stay in shinjuku and he is coming for me.  I happily  told the gyaruo that my boyfriend is coming to get me. He said ahh thats great~! I'll keep you company til he arrives so you dont have to deal with those annoying people while you wait. I told him I appreciated that. We talked about circle life while I waited.

But time kept passing by..... it was already almost the last train so I waited in front of the gate for awhile.... it became about 1.... 1:15.. I started call and I was confused... were the trains delayed??? he should be here by now. AI told me he's on his way. He finally arrives at 1:30am.

The gyaruo walked me outside then parted ways. He was soo nice. He didnt even ask for my number or anything and was willing to help me even before he saw my face. I was lucky someone who was genuinely nice was around. (though to be honest a lot of sa-jin or ex-sa-jin are good people esp when it comes to taking care of other sa-jin)

I met with Ai.... with the other people there... I didn't want to embarrass him in front of these people so I said sorry and I didn't mean to yell at him (one of the first times in my life where I said sorry when I didn't mean it) he looked at me with concerned and sad eyes and said he was sorry too and he didn't mean to yell either. I then smiled and said but there's one thing... I REALLY NEED TO GO TO THE WASHROOM!!  T_T I've been waiting there for 3hrs! He laughed and excused himself from the group.

He took me by my hand and asked if I was hungry. I told him I was so he took me to a ramen shop and ordered ramen for me as I went to the washroom. I told him... you know... you asked me why do put so much effort into something you might think is useless.... the truth is.. in Canada I was unable to do a lot of things I wanted to do.  One of my dreams was to be in a gyaru-sa, and to be accepted and belong to a big tight group like I have in a gyarusa... Yea I know a bit a behind in terms of my age but some things you have to go though before you move on. I'm maturing quickly but I have a lot of catching up to do. I was always at least 3 years more mature for my age but I plateaued around age 14 at the mentality of age 18. I hadn't had a chance go mature beyond that because my environment didn't allow me to grow.

He started to understand my point of view a bit more now that things are calmly told in a ramen store. He then told me that hes sorry but ever since he could remember he has bad timing it seems (he has a bit of a waver in his voice as he says this as he was trying not to cry) and im sorry I have to make you wait all the time....

He later tells me to close my eyes and I do. He then kissed me and I blushed. He said we gotta go, I only told them we'd be only gone a couple mins (but its been more like 30mins) see. I do it to other people too~ (for once im the person who is delaying his schedule is what he was saying) I laughed.

We met up with the other group. They apologized to me because they had no idea Ai was supposed to be meeting me. A girl and another guy showed up and they were really fun to talk to. The girl said I LIKE CUTE THINGS and claimed me and the boy as hers. The leader was like that's his girlfriend you know~ And shes like OH??? really? But hes soo far =P Hey mister, you shouldn't let this cute girl out of sight or else someone will steal her away~~ hahaha

Ai then took everyone to the maid cafe we went to last time. Ai kept going back and forth from the rooms and I talked to some of the other people most of the time....

Eventually It was time to go because Ai had work so he sent me off with the other people who came in a car. They drove me home and I crashed after being awake for 36hrs

It was a awful day... absolutely dreadful. Even though we made up in the end I don't think our problems were really solved since even in the end he paid more attention to the other ppl than me. Im starting to feel like for a guy like him girlfriend always looses when it comes to work....

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Dinner with Ruki

A friend of mine from mixi had asked to hang out multiple times but because my time has always been caught up with gyaru-sa things and Ai, I didn't have time til today. Ruki and I have been conversing on Mixi for quite a long time but this was the first time meeting.

We met up at 109. It was very easy to spot him because his hair color was exactly like mine. We couldn't really figure out what to do so we took purikura and I think we sang some karaoke before going to an izakaya for dinner. We chatted about various things. Because he's also a high ranking host. When we got on the topic about my boyfriend I asked him what is his insight on it all. He said that he had not met him before so he can't give a accurate assessment but he thinks my boyfriend seems like a sincere person and that it is prob as I just suspected that he is just busy. He thinks that hes pretty sure he cares about me since if he didn't he wouldn't be the one paying for all those expensive dates and making time in his busy schedule for me. Ruki says that he too is often bogged down with a lot of work so he understands the time gaps very well though he thinks Ai should mail me more often. After dinner we parted.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Yumi and Linderman's Birthday In Odaiba

During danguru, a new group was formed called Lov'Laze which is a group that consisted with close friends from Love Gals and Blaze event circles. However because it seemed a bit exclusive and circle like. We were made to change the name of the group to something else so we called it Toyosu Family. (why? I have no clue but I guess because a few of them live near Toyosu station? Sounds kind of like a mafia group if you asked me haha) It is our lovely Yumi's birthday as well as our good friend Linderman so what better way to celebrate but to all meet up and go to odaiba together.

We were again late because the time kept changing even worse is that the time was set to be earlier than planned but while miki was on time for once,  Linda was an hour late =_=;;; Ash and I rushed over for nothing it seems. We would have been on time if it weren't for the fact that we took the wrong train which set us back by about 20mins on top of the 20mins we were already late for. Its been really upsetting me recently. Schedules keep catching me off guard and I hate it. Like Ai I like to make the most of my time but unlike Ai, I strategically plan everything out so that I can get the max amount of sleep while still being on time and getting everything I need to get done on time with some extra time allowances so that everything can run smoothly. I don't, however, have hours to spare to allow for the  drastic schedule changes that puts everything out of wack.  I really don't like my schedules tampered with....anyone who knows me well knows im very anal about this so with no plans going as planned is really driving me crazy.

When Linda finally arrived we all headed to Odaiba together. This was the first time I was able to talk to Linda more closely as others were on the other group of seats talking amongst themselves. I never noticed how low-tension he is and it was kinda of refreshing as a lot of sa-jin can be very hyper which is great but wearing at times.

When we arrived in Odaiba we went to the beach. I never knew Odaiba had a beach and a board walk...Now that I think about it, wayyy back when, when I was watching super Gals! This is must be the part of Odaiba that was illustrated. Every time I went to Odaiba before was to Venus fort and Joypolis at night so I never got to see this side of Odaiba before. I was kind of excited to see everything that I saw when I was a lot younger, only dreaming about being in Japan, right in front of my eyes as real now.

I was kind of uncomfortable with the beach at first because I am wear my heels and didn't want sand in them. No one told me we were going to a beach.... I would have brought different shoes but I guess it didn't matter to much as we were only there for about 15mins to make Yumi and Linder chug small bottles of champagne as we shouted birthday drinking calls at them. Ba-ba-ba-birthday, birthday, birthday, ba-ba-ba birthday~~~~

Later deciding what to eat, Tomoki told us that knows a great place that has a cheap all you can eat and if you are in Odaiba you must try it. We went there and stuffed ourselves on spaghetti and other things then went to the chocolate fountain and made good use of the all you can eat dessert as well. I remember this place~~~ it was the place that Ai wanted to take me when we went to Odaiba but it was closed. I was kinda reminiscing about that time when the others called me back to the table after I finished filling my dessert dish.

We ended our meal with a surprise birthday cake for yumi and linda and then put cake all over their faces and took photos.

After fixing up, we went to take purikura and then Tomoki said he had a GREAT idea. How about we all go... INTO A HAUNTED HOUSE! Yumi was really opposed to this. Tomoki said that we all must go~~~ its Yumi's sweet 16 and offered to pay. We didn't know this before but our tough little black gyaru is deathly afraid of haunted houses, horror movies or anything of the sort. We had to drag her with us and we all went in together.

Really the tour was fun but it wasnt all too scary other than the fact that there was one person that kept whispering tomoki's name even though we only wrote linda's. By the time we came out Yumi was soo scared she was crying to the point her eyelashes fell off. Balling like crazy we all tried our best to calm her down. The poor girl we didn't think she was THAT scared of it.

Next on the list was Joypolis. This is where Ash and I decided it was time to go home...  We just couldn't afford the night pass for Joypolis. I had almost forgotten how expensive it was since the last time I went Ai paid for it all so I didn't think of it. We all said goodbye and headed home.

What a sweet time we had~~~ Toyosu family is soo fun to hang with. The only down side to it all was that everything they do is expensive. Next they all want to go to Disney. I want to go.. but I doubt I can afford it. Besides for the first time I want it to be with Ai.

Friday, June 10, 2011

A Princess from Germany comes to visit!


Sui has been messaging Ash and I for awhile and told us she will be in Japan for a little bit with her boyfriend. Ash and I were running late by about 20mins ( I never used to be late but Ai has put me in a bit of a distressed condition where I almost don't want to be on time because I've grown from being tolerant of want go absolutely loathing it) so we mailed Diane about it. When we arrived in front of Ma*rs in Shinjuku we contacted her again but apparently since we were a bit late, they went to get their nails done so they will be there soon. Ash has these new shoes that she has been wearing all week in which are her first diamond platform heels (very had to walk in but I've gotten used to them since  I was 19) and she was started to whine and complain again. ( by this point she had been whining about it everyday of the week constantly needing to stop and rest etc etc) She threw a bit of a fit having to wait about 30+ mins for them and that her feet hurt, that she wants to die etc etc. I told her to stop complaining and if she wants to wear heels she should just suck up the pain. Its not like I like waiting either and its not like my feet don't hurt either. (I'm also wearing very uncomfortable shoes)

She told me that its only because we are standing for this long it hurts and that she hasnt complained for dayyys about it. I told her that no, that's not correct, you complained yesterday. She gave another excuse for that. Then I proceeded to remind her that she complained the day before and the day before and the day before. She said well then fine I just won't talk anymore, I'm useless, I should just die. I said over a pair of shoes? That's ridiculous. stop  being a drama queen. She went quiet and we waited patiently for diane and sui to arrive. This is our first “fight” it ended quickly.

When diane and sui arrived we had already apologized and said that agreed we were both on edge recently due to all the stress with the things going on recently. The thing is that not only was Ai being super late like normal, recently anything to do with dancegroove is told last minute. Schedules keep getting changed and we are often rushing around because they reset the time to be 2-3hrs earlier than what it was supposed to be or we are left to wait as no one shows up til 1hr later.

Along with Diane, Diane's husband, Sui, and Sui's boyfriend we had a special guest joining us for a photo who was Himena. Himena couldn't stay long but my gosh is she so much prettier in real life than in photos. I've always thought that Himena had the ugliest  huge nose but apparently it was just ageha's weird photoshopping that made her look that way.

We headed into Kabukicho to the game center to take some purikura then went to a nice italian restaurant to eat. Diane's english wasn't very good so when talking to ash she spoke in Japanese and though Diane's husband can speak english, he spoke to ash in Japanese as well to the point where Sui thought that Ash didn't speak english. Haha~

Sui's boyfriend was taking a lot of candid photos as we chatted about various things. Sui said she is really enjoying her stay in Japan and wish she could stay longer. I really like Sui and think she is a sweet girl so I really wish she could stay longer too~ I really like it when cute sweet western gals come to Japan.

Our time was cut short because Ash and I had to leave around 9 But we had a lot of fun~~ I wish Sui was staying longer because I would have liked to hang out with her more. But she says she plans to come back sometime next year in the spring so I'm looking forward to that.

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Roppongi Hills with Ai

The original plan was to meet at Ueno station at 12pm but he told me that it would be another hour til he was free so I went back to sleep for a bit but overslept because my alarm didnt wake me up. So I told him I'd 30mins late. As I on the train heading towards Ueno, he told me that he was spotted by a trouble customer at Ueno so he told me to meet him at Roppongi instead. I turned back and told him it will take me about 30more minutes to get to Roppongi. I figured that since I think there's a direct line or rather easy way to get to roppongi from Ueno, that he should arrive around the same time as me. I felt kind of bad for the one time he was actually on time...

So I finally arrived at Roppongi at around 2:30 and waited there thinking he would be there soon because he was already heading to see me right? 30Mins go by... 1hr.... I started to get a bit annoyed and asked him where he was. He told me he was at Tokyo station. I was wondering why he was there that  isn't a normal route from Ueno to Roppongi... But anyways, I thought maybe he took a different train or something. Should only take another 30mins to get to roppongi... another 30misn goes by and hes not there.... I message him again he said hes close but not there yet... ok..... so FINALLY at 4:30 (2hrs!) he showed up. I was very confused as to how he took 2.5 hrs to get to roppongi from Ueno. He explained to me that he over estimated the time it would take for me to get to roppongi so he went to get his watch fixed at tokyo station which took a lot longer than he expected. I told him that I'd arrive at roppongi at 2;30 and like I said I arrived there at 2:30~! When I give a time estimate I'm usually only off by 1-3mins at most and told him he should know that by now. Again... I didn't want to spend the whole time yelling at him so I quickly calmed down and we walked around roppongi.

He asked me if I came to Roppongi often. I told him I rarely go because there are a lot of rude foreigners that say really gross things in english to me like nice tits, I want to cum in your pussy thinking I don't understand in Roppongi. He said ahhh I guess I wouldn't like roppongi at all if it were like that. I was wondering where we were going.

Eventually we arrived at Roppongi Hills. I had only ever saw these towers from the outside at night and was unaware they were such a tourist attraction in the inside. There wasn't much time left but he took me to the Roppongi Hills Planetarium. We went from tour to tour inside One in which we go to go into this room that was filled with lights on invisible strings that were accurately scaled and placed to make an accurate picture of the night sky and its constellations. Ai and I looked around us romantically holding hands. I had never seen such pretty things before  in Canada....

About 5mins later we were lead to the next room where we got to write our wishes on stars and pin them up on the wall. I wrote that I wish to be able to stay in Japan and for Ai, Ash, my mom and I to live lives full of love, prosperity and success in whatever our dreams may be. Ai wrote that he wishes everyone to have a happy life. Haha I guess I'm a bit more selfish, I only care about those I'm close with.

When we got to the gift shop we saw holgram projectors that project images of the night sky on to the walls and ceilings of whatever room you place it in. I asked Ai if he liked stars since this is not the first time he took me to somewhere that we could see the night sky. He said he quite likes it and that maybe some day he wants to buy one of these projectors to put in his room. He is such a romantic.~~

We wanted to go on to the skyline? (roof top) but the operating hours were already over so we exited the area into the high rise bar. We drank some very elaborate cocktails in by a view of the city as the sun sat. Ai told me that he is sorry that he is unable to make a lot of time for me and that It had always kind of been this way.  I told him that I understand that he is busy but it doesn't take very much time to at least mail me sometimes or on a more regular basis. He then said that he wasn't always the mailing type but soon he will have lots of time to mail me. I asked him what he meant by that. He told me he is going to quit hosting very soon because his body is in bad condition. when he does that he is going to go in for surgery. (skin surgery to reduce aging and maybe rhinoplasty because he hates his nose) During his recovery he won't be able to come out of his house so he will have lots of time to mail me. I kinda narrowed my eyes because yea that means he can mail me more but then that also means I can't see him at all for about 3weeks because his and his roomate's rule is that no girls are allowed in. I told him that it is a bad idea to do that in the summer. The sun is harsh, its prob the worst idea to make your skin more vulnerable to it. (which is true) He told me I was right but he doesn't have much time. The only time he has is the time gap he has between hosting and whatever he decides to do after. ( I believe he says he is going to try to open a bar ) The conversation was very long but the jist of it is that he is quitting hosting soon, he's planning on getting surgery done, he has to start saving up money to prepare for this, and we might not be able to see each-other for a couple weeks when this happens but he will have nothing but time to mail me.

After we finished our drinks we looked around in the shops on the ground level a little and we entered in a designer watch shop. He told me it was his hobby collecting unique watches. I kinda made a jab at him as all the watches he ever showed interest in were  around 2000-10000dollars that what is the use of an expensive watch when you can't even be on time. He laughed at my joke and said “tashikani” (means I guess you are right kind or of course kind  of thing) I asked him how is it that he manages to be that many hours late when he has a watch right on his hand yet I, using only my cellphone clock am nearly always on time. He told me that that he's always to do too many things at once and that he is always thinking about multiple things at the same time and trying his best not to waste a minute of his time by jam packing his schedule. However he often gets carried away and looses track of time.  (aka being overly ambitious and biting more than he can chew) I gently told him that isn't it a bit inconsiderate of other people's time? If its me, yea sure I get annoyed but that's just about it. But how is it that he expects to become a singer when he is always late. An agency isn't going to think lightly on tardiness.(because once when I co-incidentally met his real-estate agent, his real-estate agent told me that it's not just me he's late for, it seems that hes late for EVERYONE) If you are late for an important meeting or anything of the sort, it reflects badly on your character. It makes you look unprofessional and I don't want that for him. I believe he is really talented and I'd hate for him to miss any opportunity that he deserves just because of his tardiness.  I know his intentions are good but he is really in the end working against himself rather than pulling forward with this kind of way of thinking. Not only is it more stressful but its counter-productive. Instead what he should do is stick to a schedule if there is extra time pick something that you think you can do during that time but if it cannot be finished in the allotted extra time drop it and return back to schedule and finish the extra thing another day. Things that are preferable to pick are things that you can stop mid-job and resume back such as mailing back people that you needed to get back to,  browsing at shops for items you need to buy.. small things like that. Another thing that would help is to give a 5-10min buffer time in case things go over the time you estimate.  He told me I was right and that he will try his best to be on time for things.

The shops eventually closed and we sat outside for a bit. I asked him what were the time schedules on the trains so I can take the last train possible without being late. We chatted a little while holding hands and til the last minute possible before I left to go to the train station. While again, I hate parting with him I felt like maybe today we made at least some progress as to understanding each-other more.

Saturday, June 4, 2011

First time hanging out with Tina

Getting to know Tina a bit online we finally decided to all hang out. She had already looked around 109 by the time we met up with her so we all decided to go for a couple hours in karaoke. We took turns singing and I was pleasantly amazed that Tina sang quite well =). She has a very sweet voice and sang songs by Nakashima Mika etc. Ash sang random songs from different genres and I sang as usaul, vkei ballads.  We all had a lot of fun at karaoke.

When karaoke was over we went out and sat near the big scramble walk trying to figure out when Tina was contacted by 2 spanish gyaru. She asked if we would like to meet them and we said we would love to. We headed to McDs and met Emu and one other girl who are both married and one with children in Japan. We talked about various things over dinner and got along very well.

But as it was getting later people had some other plans they had to do so we all walked to shibuya station and split off. I was really happy to finally be able to meet with Tina. I thought because she was friends with someone that didn't like me that I may not get a chance to.

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Dance Groove Mini Event at Elf

This day was a complete disaster. No matter how hard we tried we couldn't get out of the house in time. A lot of stress has been building up during danguru. Everything related to the event is supposed to be told to us via our section (not our circle). The leader for our section Rina was completely incompetent. She doesn't properly go to all the meets and does not inform us about the dates, times and due dates for things in time. Instead second in command Tomonyan had to take care of it all by hunting down the information. The problem is that the structure of the gyaru event circles is very strict about the hierarchy of positions so that only the leader will be given the information to pass down to the people they are in charge of. Well this is not a problem par-say but when you have a lazy leader that doesn't properly do her work it is. (I almost believe that she got the position because she cried and she only wanted it because she wanted the big photoshoot that you get when you are the leader of a section.

For the mini event (which is like a little before party at a club for everyone working the event) we were supposed to meet before hand and then go together as a section but we did not receive any information about where to meet and when to meet at all. Instead we finally got the information from our kohai in our circle as to what to do when it was already a bit to late to be on time. We also were not completely sure as to where club elf is. As far as I could remember, it was on the other side of shibuya station in which I do not go very often to.

When we finally got out of the house after struggling to get our hair done, we headed out of the house when the rain was pouring soo hard it looked like the rain was coming down in sheets of water. It was close to summer and I did not have a proper pair of shoes that went with black clothes so I wore my old ma*rs shoes that didn't have a lot of support and my heel was sliding on and off my shoe because it was soo wet with no ankle straps. We kept walking and walking getting lost. We were walking down the stairs of the over pass and the stairs were soo slippery  I slipped and almost   fell but caught myself on the rail. I took another step but this time I couldn't catch myself  in time and though I grabbed on to the rail, I slid all the way down on it and fell down the stairs til I hit bottom. I started to cry pretty defeated sitting on the floor soaked to the bone. The thing was that I wasn't particularly in pain but even though I was trying to tolerate all the stress about this event and my boyfriend, I just couldn't take it anymore and cried. I got back up after a bit and limped around trying to find the club but eventually it just got to be too much so we took the taxi there.

When we finally got to the event things felt a lot better as we got to party with our friends even though it was only for a short while because we arrived so late.


Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Asakusa +Ai + Namjatown


Asakusa and Ai

Since we slept early, we were able to wake up relatively early to go to Asakusa to pick up some fans for our pin puri for the graphics section of Danguru. At first we were a bit lost but we eventually found our way. Asakusa brings me back many memories. I remember the last time I was there Ryuu and I had a bit of an argument when I was unsure if it was a good idea for him to go to Canada with me after the way he acted when he was super drunk on the day he put the deposit down for the plane ticket to Canada. I remember I kept silent til close to asakusa I started to sob when he asked me if I loved him and I said I do and he told me  then why are you crying for? “hora, kodomo” and held me close.

Anyways we walked down asakusa looking for fans and nearly every fan we saw and loved was super expensive til we hit a couple of cheaper stores and I found one that matches my yukata very well for only 800yen. After we bought our fans we passed by a cat character store. I wanted to buy a little thing for Ai so I got him a black cat cellphone charm in the shape of a cube.

I was waiting for Ais' mail for quite awhile and it finally came but relatively late. He said he saw an ad for this one restaurant that he wanted to go to in Akabane. He said that it looked very oshare and he thought me of me when he saw it. But when I arrived at Akabane we found out that it had closed early due to an aftershock so we got back on the train and headed to ikebukuro.


We were trying to figure out what to do. He took me through sunshine city and we went to a darts bar.
Ai and the bartender got along very well and he asked to bar tender to make me some special cocktails. It tasted very good. I started to talk to ai and kind of softly brought up that hes kinda gotta fix this late problem of his. Another topic I wanted to discuss was that I wanted to know if he liked me for me right now and not just what he thinks I have the potential to become. Of course I try very hard in life and I will do everything I can to make my dreams come true and that its great that he admires and respects my drive in life but I wanted to know... if I failed would he still love me? He put it like this. He said that it doesn't matter if I succeed or not but the fact that I try so hard and have such a drive in life is what he loves about me. Also, he thinks I'm cute and sweet. I felt a bit more relaxed after that.

Shortly after the billiard table was open and so we went to play. He asked me if I played before. I told him I might have once or twice but not really. So he re-taught me the basic rules. Again like every time he challenges me to a game that I've never played before I win by beginners luck and then he beats me in the next round. We played at the darts bar for a long time then we went to a maga-cafe and chilled out there til morning.

Ikebukuro- Namjatown with Ai May 25th


We were supposed to meet on the 21st not too long after Ai was supposed to come back from his trip to his hometown in Akita but he canceled because he had to stay longer than he was planning.... I was not mad about that because things can't be helped sometimes but he could have at least told me in advance! Instead of telling me at 3am on the day we were supposed to meet. Anyways he felt really bad about it so he said he wanted to take me to an amusement park. He told me to meet at Suidobashi. I arrived in a timely matter as always and he was late AGAIN. But this time not as bad as normal as he was only 45mins late as opposed to 2-3hrs....

I was rather upset while being happy that I finally got some time with him.  He sensed my frustration and said sorry. I told him I wasn't all that upset as much as that it'd be nice if he could tell me more in advance when things come up. But I was happy that this time that he properly told me when he was going to be late rather than me standing there not knowing when he is going to show up. I kept it brief because I wanted to enjoy the time we spend together rather than nagging him about tedious things. The thing I hate is that I feel awful nagging him but he really doesn't really have any concept of time.

Anyways I asked him how was his trip and he told me it was awful. He didn't go there to play. He went there because there was some issues with his family amongst other things. Something about a relative's death and some old problems involving some friends of his in his home town. He said he really wanted to come back to tokyo faster but things were not able to be resolved in the time he had originally allotted for it. Then he paused and said OH YEA I bought you a souvenir. He took out a package and watched with anticipation to my reaction when I opened it. It was a onyx bead bracelet. He told me to put it on and asked if I knew the meaning of this stone. (I didn't) He explained to me that its a power stone. It is supposed to help you achieve your dreams and help you with success in achieving your goals. I thought it was really sweet of him and put it on. In canada this kind of bracelet goes for around 10-20 dollars but later I found out because of the way it was cut and everything it goes for anywhere between 5000~10000yen. 0_0;;;

We arrived at suidobashi to find out it had been closed since feb due to an accident and then later because of the earthquake. We ate pancakes at moomin? Cafe. The place was full of them sitting in chairs with you. The pancakes we ordered where the most ornate pancakes I've ever seen haha.

Since the place was closed we had to figure out where to next. We didnt have much time because I had work after. (if he had told me more in advance I could have taken the day off for him ) He told me well.... there's another amusement park but its about a hr or so away... or there's namjatown which is in ikebukuro. Because of the time restraint I decided that namjatown would be the better idea.

When we arrived the first place we went to was the haunted house in namjatown. You took a head around with you and you would take a photo and each time the photo would get more and more distorted. The last photo you get kind of used to it when the chair drops and theres a blast of air that blows on your face and thats when the real photo gets taken. Ai predicted it and he was smiling holding down his hair while I buried my face into his shoulder.

We then took a break on the bench where he looked up the site I wanted to buy my phone on. There was some sort of problem getting it and I thought maybe he can help me but there was some problem with the sign up so he said he would get it for me when he got home. For some reason I …. unfortunately can't seem to trust that he would pull through for me so as a back up plan if the phone was still there on the site I would figure that he didn't get it and ask ash to get it for me instead. Its not a great feeling to feel that you cant rely on your boyfriend for anything important.... Anyway I decided to put that feeling behind and enjoy the rest of the little time we had left before I had to go. We walked around at looked at various sites. When we arrived at the game center he caught me a hello kitty plushie from the ufo catcher. Just a little after we went to the food court and we tried some different kinds of gyoza. The most bizarre one was a chocolate banana gyoza with candy sprinkles. Funny, it tasted pretty good. Haha.

But time was starting to run out so he walked me to the station. I said goodbye I always hate this part of the date. I shouldn't be feeling this way but I feel like every time we part, I won't see him again for awhile.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Dance Groove BBQ 2011

Before going to the BBQ Ash and I took some purikura at Meccha when a bunch of other people who were planning on going showed up. Mikado Youth Shun Shun and Yuuki greeted us and introduced us to 2 people who are trying out for Mikado.  One was named Go who was a super tanned gyaruo (secretly at age 27) and ….. Murasaki (I forgot his name but we nicknamed him murasaki because he wore a super gaudy purple shirt) who is a 19year-old host. Shun Shun and Yuki thought it would be a good idea to take purikura so we all headed inside to Mecca again. Murasaki and Go joined too. It was very hard getting everyone in frame especially since Murasaki kept going up really close to the camera.  A little later Mii and Akiho came and we took a couple shots with them and stood back when they took their pin-puri (solo purikura) for their section. We then all headed towards the station and went to the bbq together.

On our way to the BBQ Murasaki was hitting on nearly every girl in sight. Everyone thought of him as a bother. Shun Shun, who is like my little brother, and I both hid under my umbrella paranoid of getting tanned while Go and Ash were basking in the sun. The BBQ area was a place near the river under a bridge where many many people come together, put up tarps and have a BBQ together. It was set up a lot like a camp site where people had to pay an entrance fee before being allowed in. Yuuki didn't have any money after paying for the trip so Masa paid for him.

The BBQ started but it was not long before the alcohol came out.... I thought to myself REALLY?!!! In the middle of the afternoon?! I thought we were going to nagomu after the BBQ at yoyogi koen.... And we were but some idiot brought the alcohol to the BBQ site and the drinking began.

I didn't sleep and I was deathly hungry so I avoided the drinking areas quite a bit. Its the middle of the afternoon, its hot and I was really not in a mood to drink. I did eventually drink a lot after I finished filling my stomach. At some point I was sitting with Nikoru and he told me his real last name is Shibuya Hajime. I didnt believe him at first but he showed me his ID and it was actually true. It was spelt with different kanji but if you were to read it out as is, it sounds like  “the beginning of shibuya”

Shun Shun despite being weak purposely lost and drank til he was wasted while some others also got drunk as well throwing others into the river. By the end a lot of people in the planning section were all crying about something other people didn't know about. Everyone helped clean up and those who weren't wasted helped those who were to the station. Tetsu, was soo bad that ash had to stay behind to help him out. I went to the station with everyone else.

Some idiot of ours thought it was a good idea to set off fireworks inside the station. When the train police came we all dispersed and hid and they couldn't catch us. I went into the washroom and was talking to Chimu. We all kind of agreed it was stupid of them to think that was a good idea. After about 5mins we all headed up to the platform but that was not the end of the idiocy. I think there was some sort of dispute and two of the boys were arguing. I don't remember what it was about but it ended with Kai on the train tracks. The train police came and arrested Kai and the other guy while chimu followed. I still was holding Kai's bag so I was stuck wondering what to do.... The others told me that I should go with them to Shibuya and wait for him there.

On the train I met another girl who was appearently half philipino. She still only had black hair and minimal make-up. She told me that she wants to get better at being gal but her school wont let her dye her hair... We had a good conversation the whole way back to shibuya.

Everyone met up at Mecca again and were trying to organize as to what to do next. Most people where not in the mood for nagoming because a lot of people already drank too much at the bbq.  In front of mecca, I saw nikoru again and I told him about what happened to kai and I was unsure what to do with his stuff. Nikoru said he would take care of it so I gave it to him. Not long after Tetsu and others showed up but I was wondering where ash went. Tetsu told me she was really tired and that she headed home directly. I waited til everyone decided as to what to do later but I too, was tired so I decided to go home as well. Tetsu and Kuukii walked me home.

When I got home I passed out and fell asleep.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Dance Groove Vacation In Chiba


All large Gyaru Events such as Dance Groove, Love and Sunshine, Campus Summit, D-1 etc go on a short overnight trip with all the circles involved. Because its a large group, and gyaru are very thrifty, we always find a good deal. For Dance Groove 2011, we went to a beach house called Casablanca in the countryside of Chiba by the ocean.

We were told to bring comfortable clothing and when we arrive in shinjuku station, to check in with our section's leader. Everyone is told to arrive at 10am in shinjuku. By the time everyone arrived it was around 11am. Many people came in sweats, crocs and no makeup. I think only people in Love Gals and a couple others came looking like their normal selves. One girl from HRK youth, a hime gal came in full makeup and hair made me wish I did my hair but since I was told to go casual so I came in sneakers, a hat, tank-top and shorts. Yumi, Masumi and Miki went to shinjuku a lot earlier to get hair-make done. LoL gotta love my girls~

It was a long train ride to Chiba. It took more than 2hrs to get to the place where we were going. When we arrived I saw a part of Japan I have never seen before. We were definitely in the countryside with only houses, 1-3story buildings and rice fields. It was kinda like the local chillawak?


We arrived at the beach-house sometime during the early-mid afternoon. We were given a briefing outside the house about the resort's rules and then our leaders were given the room keys. The rooms were separated by circles. We all rested for a bit and then some of us took a short walk to the beach. The air was really cold and cloudy. We didnt really do much but take some photos and ran around the beach a little. Ryouchimu and Linda were crazy and ran out into the ocean while people took photos and filmed. I also filmed but to my surprise when they came back ryouchimu pulled down his pants in front of everyone and I freaked out. 0_ollllllllllll We headed back not too long after.

When we came back everyone was told to meet in the dining hall where there were giant group photos taken then speeches and parapara dancing while drinking calls were shouted and people were made to chug large amounts of alcohol. About 2 hours later we all were moved outside where we all split up into groups around bbq grills and started to have a big feast. Everyone ate til they were stuffed then there was a short break while everyone helped clean up.


The original plan was to all go to the beach with alcohol and start the drinking games but it started to rain so we went into the main room of the beach-house and laid out tarps on top of the tatami mats and began the drinking. To start us off as usual, the leaders start chugging while everyone cheers then when they finish they tell us all to begin.

The night went long and to make everyone drink even more, people not only have to drink when they loose the game, the person to their right has to drink too. Just when I finally gotten used to the games and got pretty good at them I got sat next to a new girl who kept messing up so I had to drink a lot even though I barely lost the games. But I wasn't alone because Takuya (or Orataku as we call him because hes in an ora ora-kei magazine called Soul Japan) was
sat next to our miki who barely goes to nagomis so she too didn't know how to play the games. It got to the point where he tried run away to another drinking ring but everyone just pulled him back in.

ryochimu men's egg youth model showing off
I was full of food so I lasted a while but having to drink so much because of the girl next to me I eventually threw up and went upstairs to our room. Technically we are allowed to leave the nagomi at anytime but if we leave we cannot just sit and watch. Also, unlike in western culture where its considered responsible and admirable to know your limit in drinking, in Japanese culture it is admirable to drink to the very end and not to refuse any drinks.
I passed out for a an hour or so then woke up completely sober and fine. I had already removed my makeup but I figured since everyone is probably drunk and won't remember the next day all too well, I went back downstairs to pick up my jacket and to see how everyone is doing. People were still nagom-ing and some continued to play holding a plastic bag under their chin so they can throw up and then drink some more. For those who were sober enough to see people were surprised to see me back so fast. However I didn't continue drinking because I threw up all my food and knowing me, my tolerance becomes almost non-existent when I'm hungry.

I ran into Kai when I went back downstairs. He was completely wasted. When he managed to steady his head well enough to see properly he noticed I didn't have any makeup on and told me he was surprised that my face didn't change all too much then floped back on the floor looking like an inch-worm crawling on the floor looking for his jacket and shoes. Since he took care of me during the first big nagomi I helped him up and looked for his things with him and helped him back up to his room.

Not long after most people where lead back to their rooms. Some of to boys snuck out and came to our room where we chatted over snacks. The ones who came over was Kai, Sasa-pon, and Tomo. Kai noticed that miki was making some soft moaning noises when she was sleeping so he softly started to ask perverted questions and she half responded it was kinda funny. He said to us shes definitely dreaming of sex. When the super-visors came sasapon hid while the rest of of them left. He passed out on the floor while the rest of us eventually fell asleep for maybe about 2hrs.

In the morning we all woke up and put on our makeup. Orataku and Tomo came to visit while sasapon was there all night.  Orataku came in disappointed that he missed seeing Ashley's non makeup face. He told her to take it off so he can see. She told him that shes almost done so no and that it was too bad he wasn't 10mins earlier. Masa also came in not long after and slept in miki's bed a little longer with his legs sprawled out to the wall.

After everyone got ready we headed downstairs to the dinning hall for breakfast and then headed to the beach. Unlike the day before, it was sunny. I quickly tried to put on all my sunscreen but people were rushing me so I missed my back and the top of my shoulders...


Masa said Hey everyone! Lets all take a video running into the ocean. While hes setting up who will film and talking everyone passed down  the message that we will not run when he says to. So 1....2...3... and Masa runs alone while everyone laughed. He laughed too and said ok, ok, for real this time~! 1...2...3.... GO! Again just him. He laughed again and said hahah ok, ok, very funny but im getting tierd so everyone do it this time with me please. This time we all actually ran.



A little later the dodge-ball tournament began. We were teamed up via our section..... The number one problem in that is that the graphics section was made up of only 7 people so randomly other people from different groups came to help us out. We lost most of all matches. I'm not too surprised though. None of our section looked like people who are very active haha. I believe the stage people or promotions won.

We came back after spending many hours on the beach and packed our things. We left Chiba around 4ish to go home. However, at this station the train only leaves every hour and we were running late. For the last 5mins we all had to run to the platform. Some of us didn't make it. I believe it was Masumi Miki and a couple others.

When I got home I passed out exhausted. That was super fun~~~